flipflop_diva

Sometimes I wish they would stop
These thoughts rolling ‘round in my head
Agonizing over every interaction
What I did, how I looked, what I said

I can’t stop them from coming
When all I want to do is sleep
It’s late and the ones beside me
Are still, with breath so deep

I think about that phone call
And the emails that I sent
I wonder if there was another way
It all should have, could have went

What makes this even worse
Is nothing even went wrong
It’s just my thoughts rolling over
and over all night long

And then come the other thoughts
The worries and the fears
The dreams of what’s still to come
The happiness and cheers

My thoughts turn to tomorrow
And of all I have to do
The writing that needs to get done
And the work that’s overdue

I wonder if I should get up
Climb out of this comfy bed
Start on the chores for tomorrow
Get my thoughts out of my head

But the phone beside me taunts me
With the hours left in the night
Five more hours, if I can sleep
Maybe that will still be alright

Yet my thoughts keep on spinning
Around and around they go
Twisting, turning and twirling
While sleep just taunts me so

I think about the baby
And how soon he will be here
Great, now I’m worrying about all the things
I’ve yet to do this year

Beside me, David starts to stir
Rolling over and setting back down
I do the same and stretch my legs
Adjust the blankets and roll around

Four hours till the alarm will sound
Four hours till the sun will rise
Four hours till I’ll need to wake
Four hours till the toddler cries

I think about tomorrow’s entry
Maybe I can write it in my head
Stop wasting time like I always do
Be on top of life, for once instead

Somewhere in the beginning stages
Before I really even find the plot
My eyes are closed, my body relaxed
And with it goes my train of thought

I wake a few hours later
Realize my thoughts finally went away
But now they’re back with a vengeance
The way they come each day

Sometimes I wish they would just stop
These thoughts rolling ‘round in my head
Sometimes I just want a day off
A day to just lay in my bed

But the thoughts are always there
That’s just how it always will be
And all I can do is the best I can do
To not let them overwhelm me

Please don't judge too harshly! I've never really written poetry before, except silly haikus and limericks here and there. But I figured since this last immunity challenge is literally just about writing every day, and there's no voting, that I could do a little experimenting. It will probably never happen again, and I know it's not very good, but I tried!

Thank you for reading! This was written for

therealljidol: Survivor Idol! We're at the final immunity challenge now, so there's no voting. We just write an entry every day until only one person is left standing.

That said, if you want to read the entries, you can find them all here.